Huge cum load

 I've always thought and said that there's a deep difference between the appearance of a male and female orgasm. I think women are always beautiful when they come, absorbed, wrapped in, somehow introflexed even when they squirt: you can easily think they are wholly into what they're doing and feeling. I think a female orgasm is one of the best shows in the world, at every age and with every body. And I tell "one of the best" since I prefer not to overemphasize. Even the way is so tender and soft, a subtle caress on a little hidden button, but even soft strokes inside themselves... 
On the contrary, a man...! It's outwards, it's gross, That working on that hard thing... and at the end the sprouting out, everywhere, like a spit. 
Ok, maybe I prefer female orgasm since I'm a heterosexual man. It could be.

Anyhow, I always feel ashamed and embarassed in showing myself, since i think I'm gross. And what I've got to show isn't interesting.
This morning, however, I did it again in front of my cam. Yesterday I was too nervous, maybe too loaded.
I have been led to think that I'm growing old, that my cock will soon have troubles in getting an erection (actually, it happens to keep soft for long hours... it wasn't so when I was a teenager) and even to give enough sperm. 

Let me say this morning I was quite amazed... Maybe I was simply too loaded, but three long, thick, dense spurts, and some other quieter flowing... Omg how much I felt relieved!
To go on in writing roughly coarse things, and in order to let women understand, it's quite similar to when you really need to empty your bowels and you at long last succeed in doing it... that physical relief, entrails relax and feel better. 

Thanks to you, my dear who has helped me to relieve...